How are you today?

Why is it when you talk about yourself and be very factual, someone says you are feeling sorry for yourself? I just never understood that.

I mean, if someone asks me how I feel and I tell the TRUTH, they think its all negative. I am told to stop feeling sorry for myself and think positive. Heck, I was giving the facts and this is what I get

"Hey, Dee, how you feeling today?"
"Well not bad really, how about you?"
"C'mon, Dee, its me, tell me the truth. Whats really going on with you?"
"Well, I am having an fms flair for days now and the pain is incredible. Its so bad its making my bloodpressure skyrocket and in turn thats making me very dizzy and extremely tired. These new treatments are really taking their toll on me and its all just overwhelming. Because of all of this , I find myself with with less patience then usual, blah blah blah...."

So now, I think I have finally opened up and confided in someone. I told the truth on how I feel and now I can stop pretending. It takes just so much more energy to sit and grin like nothing is wrong, while I fight tears that unconsciously just keep trying to force themselves down my cheeks.

Instead, I get..."Oh honey, dont think like that". Think like what? Heck, you asked me and I told you right? Or so I thought. "Just think positive and everything will be ok. If those new meds are that bad, just quit taking them" Oh right, like that was a choice I had. If I didn't need them, I wouldnt take them. People act as though I like to torture myself more then I need to already.

This is how things go time and time again. I really am at my wits end. This is why I no longer prefer to speak to anyone and this is why I often just lie when I do talk to someone.

No one truly wants to hear the truth.

cya