| Yup, this is what my wonderful, loving IN LAW told me the other week. How I was using my disability as an excuse and would not get anywhere. I am still in total disbelief that someone I have known for 22 years , or more, can say that to me I was TYING to bounce ideas off of her. Trying to brain storm and think of something I could do, she could do or any of us could do, online or off, to make additional money. After my loving, wonderful IN LAW suggests I try customer from home, I remind her the reason I am on disability to start with. Citing that if I could make myself available Monday - Friday for 4 hours I could just go to work at my old job. Stating the obvious, or so I thought it was, of how impossible it would be to be on the phone with Mrs Smith, tell her to hold on, run to the toilet an puke and then come back as if nothing was going on Better yet, I am scheduled for 6-9p shift and at 6:15p I start diarrhea that just doesn't let up. Giving me the usual chills, cramps, pain, bleeding and total exaustion. This has been since I have known my IN LAW so I am just thinking maybe she some how forgot. Then she tell me that I will not get any job coming up with such excuses OMG! (Oh my god for the rest of you) I didn't just hear that. I must be feeling worse then I thought and heard her entirely wrong. I had to. I continue with the ideas of thinking of something any of us can do. Only to hear "if you think we knew a way to make money don't you think we would have done it by now? Don't worry, when we think of something, we will let ya'll in on it" When we think of something? Let ya'll in on it? WTF! (Thats..what the fuck) At this point I realized that I was not bouncing ideas of someone that might be truly intelligent but that's about all. I was trying to figure out what we each know and maybe think of something for someone, myself or both. At this point I was just wasting my breathe to someone who felt anything I had to say was bullshit and I was obviously just trying to get them to do something for me. I guess I shouldve known this when this IN LAW told me that if I send her anything from my usual email that I also send my humor from, she doesn't get that. As she has blocked that. Instead of just saying not to send her the emails AS SHE ALSO DOES AT TIMES. Or even making a folder for them as the rest of the free world does. So this means I wasted my time and energy sending pics of the kids, passing on links that I thought she would benefit from her and her business, letters from the kids, well wishes and ecards. That was a total waste of time "I cant find you something to do and I cant do it for you" I find this just so disturbing. Maybe I drink in my sleep and don't know it and I have total stupid moments. So I call my gf Tricia (that girlfriend - A FRIEND THATS A GIRL). So we are bouncing about the kids, what to try and not to try to get them to do homework and chores. Ideas about stuff in general and then about making money. Since I already know what kind of personality she has and tricia doesn't feel the need to keep her previous jobs a secret like she is CIA, I start to toss some things out there Sure enough, we hit on something. NOT that I can do, but she might can do. She and her sister, maybe her hubby etc. I wish we had hit on something I could do but just as happy it was at least SOMETHING we could work with Now... Was this not the same thing as with "the IN LAW"? Trying to come up with something that I could do, as well as any one of us, in order to make money. Not knowing what I wanted to do, or even could do. As no one is aware of every job there is in life or even aware of something they are able to do until they try it. Which you can not do until you hear about it! Alas I see that I am not crazy. Nor drunk, no stupid, no uncaring, selfish or anything else. I was being my usual self in trying to think of a way to make my life, or anyone I know, life better, enriched or just give them something they may not have thought about before I am happy to say that my gf is now looking into the idea I had. I am going to help her research and plan because I love her and want her to succeed in anything she tries and help if I can. Not that I am wanting to get "in on it" or came up with the idea and have her "do it for me" I have to say I learned a lot this last week or so. Blood is thicker then water and I share no blood with an IN LAW. Yet those that are just as caring and concerned and loving in life as I am, is my Christian family. We share a blood thicker than any other and that is where I will continue to put my effort, time and love. To MY blood family. Then just pray for the IN LAWS. I 100% understand now why my husband doesnt call his family, even his own mom. After years of fighting with him about it to call them, go see them or at least take the kids to see them, I am done. As he said, they all drive. They can go to the boat, shopping, come to town and spend time with everyone else but us, so be it. That is now between him, his family and their God and I no longer feel part of that. Therefore I will not put my marriage in harms way fighting with him about something, as he has stated for years, that I know nothing about. He has grown up with it and knows whats best. I am going back to Google now. I still know about 2 or 3,000 people that would love to better their lives, make change or just find something new. Don't worry either. I will continue to share emails just as I have for 20 years. I think its the same as a Sunday service at church. That message might not have been for you this week. Yet because you read it, you now have something to offer another to help them out I can not stop as I am as He made me. I love the world almost as much as He did. I wont let evil kill that in me ever again. Our Radio Stream = www.pumpupthebass.com Catch my show Monday-Friday 3-5p central US time You dont need anything special to listen, just tune in to the site at anytime to listen, chat and make requests | |||
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