Since the week before halloween of 2007 I have not had a moments rest with my colitis. I mean not one freaking moment. I just have been living in some type of hell
I told myself never again in life would I get on steroids again. Although I did try them again about a month ago, it just didnt work. I was still running to the toilet every 15 to 45 minutes around the clock. It even woke me when asleep
After forgetting my phone number, address, kids names and anything else I thought I might have to take them again. Then I started yelling at everyone for no reason and I knew it was time. Now that I have taken them, I feel a bit better, but I know in 2 weeks, the side effects will be an entirely different type of hell
I know I should be happy right? At least today I feel better. At least today I know my name, phone and 3 out of 4 kids names without thinking. I know I have so very much to be thankful for, I do, yet I think of all the things that are too come, I cant help it
My hair is already more then half gone and thin as a newborns. I have 4 teeth missing with at least that many more struggling to stay in. I am sure I will get to over 200 lbs again making it harder to walk, move and bring on more pain. Also the high blood pressure from the extra weight and water retention. Oh my , so on and on and on
The biggest thing I notice right now is the insomnia. Almost 6a and I am not even tired. I thought eating would at least make me sluggish, but with the steroids and the pain from the cold tonight, I am not the least bit tired.
Well, I thought I would just share that with you, my friends, my virtual family and the one actual blood family member that reads time to time. Yes, I must admit, this was a good idea as I would never email everyone, let alone call haha. I cant recall who suggest blogging again but thanks.
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