Everything you wanted to know, and then some. The honest truth, as I know it to be. Especially how I deal with being chronically ill with crohns, colitis, fibromyalgia and more. Keep up with me, the kids and anything else that goes through my brain.
I saw Montell William on Oprah the other day, crying through the entire show. He was talking about his MS and wahts its like to live with it etc. The first time I saw him talk about it, many years ago on his show, he said how similar it was to FMS and a few others. That how hard it was for people like us to deal with the "normals" because we look normal as they do
On Oprah, my goodness. This man cried half the show and then did something that I totally hate when people do. "I am getting through from some physical and emotional tools I have learned from my doctors and therapists and here to teach others how they can make it too" I SO HATE THAT!!
Just because you found a way to deal with your drama, does not mean that will help others. Its already proven that some chronically ill people just can not exercise. The stress on the body from exercises, even just in bed doing leg lifts and arm movements, can sometimes stress the body so bad, it takes the immune system so low you get sicker (as I suffer) or the pain is so so so great from, it does more harm then good (as I also suffer)
This just now means that I have to deal with more people saying how they say Montell dealing with MS, FMS is the same but I wont die and if he can make it every day I can
Now, here is the thing. EVERYONE I know always talks about how happy I am. I used to think I was bipolar. I can be so happy then so sad. Until I got diagnosed with FMS and colitis. I know what my drama is. I am in such pain all the time that its very had to concentrate and be nice, and funny and loving. It takes so very much from me to block out that pain. To come from the tiolet the 17th time for the day, back killing me from going back and forth, bercitis in my hip burning and hurting so bad I am limping and the arthris is my right knee locking it up again I cant straighten it out
I used to think I was depressed. After years of my shrinks telling me I wasn't, I even went to my regular doctor and begged for something. That's when I hallucinated on cymbalta last year. They keep insisting I am not depressed and I finally do understand it. I AM IN PAIN
So maybe some of you need to think about it. Are you depressed cause you are in pain? Maybe if you can find a way to rest more, take another pain medication, meditate, cry whatever. Or are you truly depressed?
Be careful with this, rethink it, research it, see your doctor. You should not be taking such high doses of antidepressent because you are in pain. Even those they claim treat both. The side effects are not worth if you are not clinically depressed
Now....I still cant get out of pain. That's yet another story to be continued later. Any ideas you have let me know. I have doctors appoinments almost every week for the next 6 weeks hehehe
and we always will!
--- Live your life in such a way that when your feet hit the floor in the morning, Satan shudders and says, "Oh shit...she's awake!"
anxious 
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